I don’t even know how to start this, except to say—I feel deeply hurt right now.
There was a time, not long ago, when I truly believed I was surrounded by people who cared. People I could trust. People who saw me. I gave them the most honest parts of myself. I loved them with everything I had. I didn’t play games. I didn’t hold back. I showed up. Every time.
And now, it feels like it was all a lie.
The same people I stood by… turned cold. Distant. Even cruel. It’s like they were just waiting for the right moment to twist the knife. And what hurts the most isn’t just what they did—it’s that they could. That maybe they never really saw me at all.
I’m someone who feels deeply. I love hard. I care, even when it’s inconvenient. I’ve never been good at pretending or holding back. I’m a free soul, and I’ve never thought twice about giving that to others. But right now? That feels like a mistake.
It’s painful to realize that not everyone deserves the kind of heart I have. That some people only show up to take, to use, to hurt. And honestly, I don’t know what to do with that yet. I just know I’m tired. Sad. Betrayed.
Still, even in this mess of emotions, I know this: I won’t let their actions turn me bitter. I won’t become what they are. I might be broken today, but I’m not gone. I’m still here. Still me. And I’ll keep being real, even if it hurts sometimes.
Because I’d rather hurt from loving too much than live numb and guarded like they do.
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